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i am da only gurl in my family..sgt manja n very fragile..i luv shopping esp kasut,bj n handbag..i love my family N fren so much tp saya sgt benci ngan hipokrit..i hav learnt to forgive and forget..like prmanently delete dat sum people ever exist as sumone dear to me.. sum people say dat i can ezly cry n laugh @ da same time..sum would say dat i'm as fierce as iron lady..sum would say i am so daddy lil gurl..sum would say i'm a b****..sum would hate me s i'm ultimate heart broker..sum will say i luv 2 hurt myself 4 da sake of others..wat eva it is..i take it..humblely..bcoz i am a slave to the Almighty..i am learning 2 b a better person...

Wednesday, March 16

si PENJUAL IKAN....

Jengkel...
Memang hampess
aku sangat la xgemar
aku dh la postcall..walaupun onkol bed sore grade 1 tp penat kot...ntah hape angin ntah bole plak aku xley tdo n settlekan benda2 remeh time onkol yg indah malam td...
so mmg le hari ni lesu, penat, skt bdn n ngantuk...
semalam bad artline day plak tuh...sume artline nak bunk...pastuh stok2 yg susah nak mampus nak insert smpi MO yg aku respek pn give up...

hari ni lepas CME pagi kitorg balik ICU n start round..round plak ngan bos 'baik' punye...aku tgh round2 1st patient admit la satu patient yg x stable gile ...nak intubate sume kat ICU..huhu...dh mula dh adrenaline rush...pastu sumer patient yg kekwat n ssh la artline xfunction, nak repeat septic workout, nak CVL baru...biasenya bile ramai manusia dlm ICU ni xde plak benda nak wat...ari ni bnyk plak nak wat...4 CVL ,  4 artline px yg susah2...br nak settle 2 patient dtg lg new admission...px restless giler2...CL 3 plak tuh...ish2... siap sume clerking n procedure yang semuanya HOUSEMAN wat ...dgr plak 1 suara...'p insert branula px tuh...dh bunk line die...' aku ngan azreey berpandangan.WTF.....??? Ko yg cbt branula tuh tolong la pasang...bkn kitorg duduk2 lalala mcm ko...dr awal smpi abis mengarah je tau....tau la preggy tp xpatut kot...sabor je la...dh la branula senang gile kot... vein menjalar2...adoi ai!bukan nak berkira or malas...tp xsyok la kan keje mcm tu...work as a team..jgn mentang2 ko tuh MO tau nak jdk pak tunjuk....senior MO sume pn xwat cm2...hampagas!!! Thap xbole blah sbb mase bz2 tu die ley suruh aku yg tgh bekerja gerak p amikkn mobile phone sbb die nk kol boss..apekah?? die yg dok diri je xwat pape xnak plak p...
sabar je la...
Mmg ptt pun mase onkol smlm senior MO tu gossip ngan aku n tnye pasal die...meragui kebolehan die..huhu...padahal mamat tu sebaik2 senior MO...xsyak lg!

Hello...sedar la sket sumer org akan ade waktu di atas n di bawah...br naik UD44 dh nak berlagak2..ya Allah mintak dijauhkan lah aku dr berperangai sebegitu kelak...tkut gak ckp2 pasal org tetibe sok lusa org ckp pasal kita...mintak simpang...

tp jadik manusia ni biarlah ikut resminya padi...makin berisi makin tunduk merendah diri.....



Monday, March 14

what the hell....

Avril Lavigne – What The Hell 
You say that I’m messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All ’cause I was making out with your friend (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it’s right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can’t stop ’cause I’m having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You’re on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy
All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can’t save me, baby, baby
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell
What… what… what… What the hell?
So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don’t get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You’re on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy
All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can save me, baby, baby
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell
La la la la la la la la… Woah… Woah…
La la la la la la la la… Woah… Woah…
You say that I’m messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I’m messing with you in bed
All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about (I don’t care about)
All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell
La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la......

Listening to diz song makes me wanna say...
yeah yeah yeah...
Thats wat i am now..
Unmanageable
180 degree the opposite of before
but i decided to b like diz
I choose to be wild child...
huhu....
to u..
WHAT THE HELL!!!




Monday, March 7

toRn

its  aching inside..seriusly..its hurting me
Dont wanna say much
Dont wanna say anything
But ...
My heart juz cannot take it
it is torn apart
nothing can unmend it...

till then,,,
i shall neva appeared again to u

as things happened y do i feel i'm alone
No one to turn to
no one to talk to
no shoulder to cry to
no one to mend me...

is it bcoz my reflection
i chose to keep it with me
not bcoz i like the way it is
juz bcoz i have to..


 
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