entah...

Hari ni aku onkol LAGI....mengharapkan suatu yang indah...InsyaAllah...amin. Serasa badan longlai melanglah bagaikan org postkol...mungkin ni la akibatnye pabila mlm xbisa melelapkan mata...unting jua dpt berkongsi rasa dan cerita ngan naim smlm...hinggakan agak lewat ketidoran...cian naim onkol2 kena hear me out..lewat seminggu ni gulana di hati semakin menjadi2...nak ku katakan hati sayu ku tak tahu mengapa...hakikatnya aku bisa tertawa ria..mungkinkh kerana terlalu bnyk berfikiran?? Aku tak mengerti harus bagaimana...mengapa begini corak dan jalan cerita... Apa yang berlaku hari ini yang pasti menambah luka...perlukah aku dihamparlan kata2 begitu...pengucapan yang bersahaja namun cukup menghiris hati...aku xpunya jwpn...salah kah aku?? Aku sedar aku hadir lewat di antara kalian...namun perlukah hati insan diperlaku begitu? Atau aku yang terlebih beremosi??? Aku yang memikirkan yang tidak2?? Entahlah...namun ku tahu, secebis hati ini telah terluka...pasti aku akan berlalu...smpi masa aku pergi....

minda atau fizikal?

waking up today after the usual routine...
Bathe
Praying
Reciting
thinking wat to wear....
supposely then bersiap2 nak p keje..tp xlarat la..how i wish i dont have to go to work...sob2...but i juz can't...i'om even oncall today...so sad...haha
tp di pk2 xtau la wat am i tored of...the mind or the physical itself???
or it is actually my heart that is getting tired...
already thinking of giving up but stil holding on coz once i give up i will give up on everything....every single thing...and i will loose grip of u,u,u and u.....

Ramalan kaji cuaca kata
aku kan jatuh cinta
tapi tak pula beritahu dengan siapa.
Lalu hari ini ku berlari
mencari-cari
si dia yang bakal
miliki hati ini.
Mungkin dia ada disitu,
tersenyum padaku,
namun malu-malu.

Hujan bunga di Kuala Lumpur
kini sudah tiada masa
untuk mencari payung
berteduh kita bawah surat khabar
lalu terbaca berita kata
hujan ini tak akan reda.

Ikut rasa ingin sahaja
aku hampirinya
tapi ku takut apa pula kata semua.

Bukan senang untuk
ku meluangkan masa ini
sekadar peluang mengisi
ruang kosong hati.
Mungkin dia ada disitu,
tersenyum padaku,
namun malu-malu.

Hujan bunga di Kuala Lumpur
kini sudah tiada masa
untuk mencari payung
berteduh kita bawah surat khabar
lalu terbaca berita kata
hujan ini tak akan reda.

.....^x^....

it is 12 midnight..i'm sleepy with exhausted body...but still my eyes keep staring onthe fan..berputar2...terkebil2 xmampu melelapkan mata..mendengar lagu ana rafalli yang baru ni memanggil2 aku menulis blog entri ini...lagu yang simple, cute and penuh makna...hehe...lets enjoy this guys...

Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa

Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu

Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa

Tolong ingatkan aku

Kisah kita

setiap hari ku mengingati kisah kita..mengukirkan suatuyang baharu...hanya ku pinta dari mu...

~edryssa49~

Syawal 2010

 سلامت هاري راي عيدالفطري

Alhamdulillah, setelah sebulan kita berpuasa di Bulan Ramadan…. akhirnya kita berjaya mengharungi sebulan berpuasa di bulan Ramadan yang lalu…..
Al-fatihah buat saudara mara dan sahabat handai yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah…. moga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat oleh Allah…. Aminnnnn….

Syukur gak raya tahun ni aku berpeluang menyambut bersama keluarga dan sahabat handai tersayang...mula2 cubenasib je mintak cuti 4 HARI straight.Taksangka and tak berharapan langsung dpt...syukur sgt2...mane taknye gara2 olok2 aku xdpt cuti kitorg dh balik utk msk ketupat towards end of Ramadhan untuk mengunjung kat saudara mara...but it was quite memorable thing though..

This year Raya different from other Raya...i arrive home kol 2.15am mase 29 Ramadhan...ni gara2 p window shopping kat Jusco tuh...jalan2...amik spec baru my fren la...hehe.nasib balik bp konvoi..so not a boring thing..mata yang ngantuk pun x ngantuk...

Last day puasa is not the same as before...xde masak2...this year sbb dh masak earlier we decide no need to masak2..hehe..alll my aunts gives us the lauk pauk as they only cook dat day...so left me alone kemas and decorate the house...lately ni ibu asyik xsehat. Memang aku sgt ler risaunye..huhu.so sebabkan aku dpt cuti ni aku pun take over the housechores..ala, lgpun bkn ssh sgt. Dat day bukak posa mmg fun...aku bukak posa kat umah my aunt in kampung istana..th house fills wif everybody...so glad...so happy...all the members catching up each other and mcm biase la...sure aku kena usik...the usual stuff..haha

Hari raya eve mule terase after maghrib...dentam dentum bunyi mercun...mmg excited habis la...dhlh keliling umah dh ade pelita kitorg pun excited la nak main bunga api n mercun gak...mamang berlawan2 la...sgt meriah berwarna warni...love diz excitement...i wud neva imagine dlm usia mcm ni raya is stil exciting things for all of us....smpi acara kemuncak mercun mlm tuh one of the mercun accidentally terbalik facing the house...mmg panik habis time tuh..sket lagi nak kena umah...sumer org jerit..huhu...

afta habis main mercun we went to BP Mall..last minute shopping....slagi xraye..slagi tu la shopping...buy my lil bro baju raya...di pk2 untung btul jd die...ade mak ayah, abang n akak yang for sure will buy anything he wants...hehe...my dad us usual geleng kpala je tgk kitorg..

Its RAYA day!!!! Hooray....walaupun terbit rase sendu dalam hati Ramadhan berlalu..dan Ramadhan tahun ni the worst for me...xsempat habis khatam Quran...terawikh kat masjid apatah lagi...MasyaAllah...
sob2...sob2...

Samapia2 untk family gathering i can hear all my aunts said siape la tu jalan ngan aunty yah...iwas like....wat??? xkenal..its me!!!! haha....sume org has the impression i'm working..hehe....and so the day begin...gossip with my lovely gurlzz cousin...my cousing yang kat aussie pun balik...meeting my new anak buah..so rosy pink muke die...comel and the fact dat everybody says she's just like me when i was young..ish2...huhu...

Then we had our usual family tahlil thing..then cenderahati raya..then PICTURE time!!!! here are some of it....

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hanya satu saja yang mahu ku coretkan...terpanggil2 nak bukak blog nisedari pagi tadi dan tulis....

aku rindu kamu...sangat!

**edryssa49**

R.a.m.a.d.h.an ke 2 as HO...

Alhamdulillah..diam x diam ni kali ke 2 aku menyambut Ramadhan as a goverment servant...kalo dulu mase belajar terpk2 mcm mane la agaknya sambut ramadhan and syawal whis is coming very soon bile time keje...hehe
As far as i can recall,last year Ramadhan was a bit slow and gloomy...this year is even better..in fact much2 better although deep down inside i know i'm holding on for sumthing of no end...sumthing i cud neva tell wats its gonna b...hehe
Last year celebrate Ramadhan as junior HO in Paeds..mase tu baru 1st posting....memang xdisangka2...kena keje plak tu time raye..aku cume cuti time raye ke 4 and 5...ish2...in fact malam raya i was onkol...memang memorable...bile ingatbalik mase Ramdhan taunlalu kebnykkkn waktu buka abes kat spital...keje..keje..keje...pastu aku pun bukan tau jalan2 nak p mkn...paling jauh p pun bazar ramadhan kat Kampung Melayu Mjdee tu...mmg naif abes la time tuh...jusco pun aku jarang jejak..apatah lagi nak shopping raye time tuh...
But this year Ramdhan is wonderful...i had few times bukak posa kat umah wif families...bukak at hotel wif family...my fren having break fast at my hommie...few occasion of proper bukak posa reramai and wif my dearest colleague and best frens..it is so much fun!!

wif cool colleague + gossipers

Bezanya taun ni celebrate Ramadhan and senior HO yang poyo2...haha...kat Medical plak tuh...haish!
Here are memories of diz year Ramadhan..i'll treasure and cherish diz moment in mywhole life..perhaps this is the best moment we ever had...yelah,afterdiz everybody might goes separate ways--married, further study, changehospital...i'll sure miss u guys so much!

my ex gigih..school gals

we enjoy makan2 a lot of time

mase ni sume tgh lahap makan Volcano

2 abgs n baby

pan pac hotel..

al's treating us Baskin robbin...

the group in LC catering..

our last buka posa togather for this year..

one of my bz oncall day..tp sempat gak mkn

love the 2 gurls..

i'm the delivery gurl..they were oncall that day..one of our best break fast..hehe

hehe...before my father came..

nyum2 wif zira..before karaokeing..

we were waiting for azan...buka posa at my house in BP..

gRadUAtIOn my LiL bRo..

06.08.2010 It was my weekend off...so i decided to drive after work on Friday to Seremban...meet up wif my parents in Ayer Keroh. Not exactly after work pun...balik umah, mandi, pack barang2 then hav a quick dinner before off to highway...xle quick maner pun dinner tu..sempat la sembang2..then i drove as 'slow' as i can off to Seremban..mane taknye, akhirnya kol 8 pm ++ baru gerak where as my parent around 6 dh gerak from bp...ish2...tkt xsempat jer nak jumpe..mmg cipta rekod..within 1 H..dlm 9.30 smpi ayer keroh waiting for my parents..hehe...mlm tu smpi2 seremban aku lepak2 with my lil bro smbil tgk the italian job..last2 tv tgk kitorg..hehe
07.08.2010
It's the DAY! Congratulation to my dear brother...i bought him 2 bouquet of flower..1 for him and 1 for his GF..hehe...terpk plak aku.If i am not coming cian die...yang my big bro pun satu...sebok sangat ngan futsal die...xreti btol nak prioritizekan family..hai...malas nak ckp..he's big enuf to think bout it.i woudnt miss it.Adik dah la sorang je and he is my dearest lil bro...no matter wat i luv him so much...so much!rasenya mcm kejap je ms berlalu,dh besar dh...
the convocation was really nice..done in PICC---Memang ler glam habes..aku plak seriesly lupe gile it is held there..pakai bj japanese cotton je..xler glam lip lap2 like my mum..hehe...xpe2, kecantikan dalam kesederhanaan (haha...cantek ke???)
The hall itself mmg nice..the deco ok la..tp it is like a new thing for me to hav a round table wif proper lunch during the convocation...differ dr majlis convo biase..and sumhow i really enjoy watching the 1st year koir group...diorg nyanyi best la...enjoy btol...

For my lil bro, here are my wish for u...

For every ending
there's a new beginning;
for every memory,
there's a dream ahead.

The happy times you've had so far,
The people you have met
Will always be a part of life
You'll never quite forget...

But ever better, brighter days
Are waiting just for you,

So dream your dreams...
and start in now
To make them all come true!