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i am da only gurl in my family..sgt manja n very fragile..i luv shopping esp kasut,bj n handbag..i love my family N fren so much tp saya sgt benci ngan hipokrit..i hav learnt to forgive and forget..like prmanently delete dat sum people ever exist as sumone dear to me.. sum people say dat i can ezly cry n laugh @ da same time..sum would say dat i'm as fierce as iron lady..sum would say i am so daddy lil gurl..sum would say i'm a b****..sum would hate me s i'm ultimate heart broker..sum will say i luv 2 hurt myself 4 da sake of others..wat eva it is..i take it..humblely..bcoz i am a slave to the Almighty..i am learning 2 b a better person...

Tuesday, October 19

honoured.. (",)

To the hungry
To the weary
To the chic
To the working
Class heroes
To the thinkers
To the doers
To happy hours
To any hour
To something
Timeless
To something new
To the dreamers
To the realist
To the mind
Body and soul
To chef and brew...

Sweet memory..

when u say nothing at all

Good memories will last forever..and those few days just stuck in my mind..can't be deleted..am I in cloud 9?? Seven heaven?? Name it..I shall nod. And the mood has been juz like it is now and then..can't help smilling alone..oh my, this is madness!!

Monday, October 11

..........

This few weeks has been worst than ever...and i eva do is keeping things to myself..there's a limit to everything..am i ever significant to u??to u?? and u guys...
and all i eva think of is to jaga hati u..amik hati u...alwiz fikirkan other people first before myself...
and that last saturday...er not sure which saturday dah..all i did was put myself ahead of everything..put my heart as my priority..and look at wat has happened...how i wish things is not diz super duper complicated n confusing..
to sum people i am important and significant..but honestly y do i feel i am not significant now??
rite now i'm in a phase of giving up everything..there's no use fighting on sumthing that will neva has an end..
Dah xtertanggung hati menjeruk rase..insan begitu senang memuntahkan segalanya dan melafaz maaf...am i dat plain stupid??
bersusah payah pujuk sana sini..pk sana sini ...end result i'm da one do the thinking..memamah diri..makan hati sendiri tapi terpaksa tersenyum and menelan segalanya...benar aku punya kekuatan sebegitu tapi aku tau setiap sesuatu ada batasnya..aku hanya mencari kebahagiaan diri..dan ketika segalanya baru bermula things going crazy...and u wasnt helping and favoring me at alll...i thought i alwiz put inside my mind that if we love sumbody doesnt mean we own them..fair enuff if they r happy...

all diz has to come to an end...i've made my decision..simple..easy...i put a dot in everything...i giv way...i'm pulling myself away...
this cut is damn deep inside...u can neva knew or imagine..or do u even care??

~gulty~

I never want to play the games that people play

I never want to hear the things they gotta say

I've found everything I need

I never wanted anymore than I can see

I only want you to believe

If it's wrong to tell the truth

Then what am I supposed to do

When all I want to do is speak my mind

If it's wrong to do what's right

I'm prepared to testify

If loving you with all my heart's a crime

Then I'm guilty

I wanna give you all the things you never had

Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad

 I followed my heart

Followed the truth

And right from the start it led me to you

Please don't leave me this way

I'm guilty now all I have to say


edryssa49

Thursday, September 23

entah...

Hari ni aku onkol LAGI....mengharapkan suatu yang indah...InsyaAllah...amin. Serasa badan longlai melanglah bagaikan org postkol...mungkin ni la akibatnye pabila mlm xbisa melelapkan mata...unting jua dpt berkongsi rasa dan cerita ngan naim smlm...hinggakan agak lewat ketidoran...cian naim onkol2 kena hear me out..lewat seminggu ni gulana di hati semakin menjadi2...nak ku katakan hati sayu ku tak tahu mengapa...hakikatnya aku bisa tertawa ria..mungkinkh kerana terlalu bnyk berfikiran?? Aku tak mengerti harus bagaimana...mengapa begini corak dan jalan cerita... Apa yang berlaku hari ini yang pasti menambah luka...perlukah aku dihamparlan kata2 begitu...pengucapan yang bersahaja namun cukup menghiris hati...aku xpunya jwpn...salah kah aku?? Aku sedar aku hadir lewat di antara kalian...namun perlukah hati insan diperlaku begitu? Atau aku yang terlebih beremosi??? Aku yang memikirkan yang tidak2?? Entahlah...namun ku tahu, secebis hati ini telah terluka...pasti aku akan berlalu...smpi masa aku pergi....

Sunday, September 19

minda atau fizikal?

waking up today after the usual routine...
Bathe
Praying
Reciting
thinking wat to wear....
supposely then bersiap2 nak p keje..tp xlarat la..how i wish i dont have to go to work...sob2...but i juz can't...i'om even oncall today...so sad...haha
tp di pk2 xtau la wat am i tored of...the mind or the physical itself???
or it is actually my heart that is getting tired...
already thinking of giving up but stil holding on coz once i give up i will give up on everything....every single thing...and i will loose grip of u,u,u and u.....

Ramalan kaji cuaca kata
aku kan jatuh cinta
tapi tak pula beritahu dengan siapa.
Lalu hari ini ku berlari
mencari-cari
si dia yang bakal
miliki hati ini.

Mungkin dia ada disitu,
tersenyum padaku,
namun malu-malu.

Hujan bunga di Kuala Lumpur
kini sudah tiada masa
untuk mencari payung
berteduh kita bawah surat khabar
lalu terbaca berita kata
hujan ini tak akan reda.
Ikut rasa ingin sahaja
aku hampirinya
tapi ku takut apa pula kata semua.
Bukan senang untuk
ku meluangkan masa ini
sekadar peluang mengisi
ruang kosong hati.

Mungkin dia ada disitu,
tersenyum padaku,
namun malu-malu.

Hujan bunga di Kuala Lumpur
kini sudah tiada masa
untuk mencari payung
berteduh kita bawah surat khabar
lalu terbaca berita kata
hujan ini tak akan reda.

.....^x^....

it is 12 midnight..i'm sleepy with exhausted body...but still my eyes keep staring onthe fan..berputar2...terkebil2 xmampu melelapkan mata..mendengar lagu ana rafalli yang baru ni memanggil2 aku menulis blog entri ini...lagu yang simple, cute and penuh makna...hehe...lets enjoy this guys...



Jangan disusun kata-kata penamat
Jangan disebut baris ayat keramat
Biar lenyap diserap sunyi
Biar senyap yang tak menyepi
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Mari patahkan papan markah lama
Mari padamkan buku tiga lima
Biar luka sembuh sendiri
Biar lupa dimakan hari
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kau tersedar
Dengan saku penyeluk masa
Kau dampingi aku
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu
Bila marah merasuk minda
Kecewa menyelubungi jiwa
Aku lupa
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Ku teringatkanmu
Setiap detik jantungku berdetak
Setiap nota jiwaku berlagu-lagu
Tolong ingatkan aku kisah kita
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah ku tersedar
Dengan kasih memeluk rasa
Tolong ingatkan aku
Kisah kita


setiap hari ku mengingati kisah kita..mengukirkan suatuyang baharu...hanya ku pinta dari mu...
~edryssa49~

 
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