wEDDinGGGssss!!!!

sepanjang dah keje ni bersusun2 orang hantar kad jemputan

kawen...tahniah buat sume yang bakal menjejakkan kai ke jinjang pelamin...kalo bole i wanna go to every reception..“Apabila diajak seseorang daripada antum ke kenduri kahwin, maka hendaklah dia menjghadirinya, dan barangsiapa yang meninggalkan undangan, maka dia telah melakukan maksiat kepada Allah dan Rasul-Nya.” [Hadis Riwayat Imam al-Bukhari dari Ibn Umar, no. 5177]

itu dari pembacaan ku, tapi malangnye bnyk jemputan yg xdapat ku hadiri disbbkan tuntutan kerja dan cuti yang terbatas...disbbkan tu my priority is my closest fren...Terima kasih di atas undangan rakan2 lain namun jutaan maaf aku hulurkan..

Menghadiri majlis kahwin dapat menyaksikan wajah2 kegembiraan...skrg plak aku mcm dh tukar hobi...suka nak amik gambar...aku mesti nak dapatkan SLR in near time...lagipun got few important weddings to attend in October onwards...

so, saving now for SLR!!!!!

a doc or D.O.G??

Housemanship aka HO...dah hampir 4 bulan aku keje..bergelar HO or trainee doctor...pegawai perubatan yang hanya mempunyai lesen perubatan sementara...it is a position of a medical intern which i think the lowest hierarki in the wards or medical world..huhu...we have to sail through 6 disciplines with four months in each posting over a period of two years. i've rememberred that the aim of increasing from 1 year to 2year of i nternship is to reduce the stress during training. After passing through 1 posting i dunno whether it is a right thing to be in this noble profession....working long hours is not the problem here but often get bullied and scolded for no apparent reason by superiors has making life worst! Damn frustrating to the core..

Thinking back i dont even know wats da best thing ever happen to me since working...apart from the satisfaction seeing those little kiddo get well, able to run and smile like a sunshine...seing a great relief of a couple after their babies healthy and being discharge...at least hard works pay..but looking on the other side of personal life...ZERO...

Money?? not much i can say...being a doc is not about money..although much of my frenz do say that doctors earn more per month but actually when we count back it is so not true...if given a choice i would rather giving up the money to the time i've lost to spend with my parents, lovely adam and dear frenz..For normal weekday, we get RM100 per oncall, on weekends or public holiday, we’ll get RM 110 ..haha..not worth it! Everyone hates weekend calls. so there goes ur weekend if u r oncall..we were given food during on call..thanks to Allah for the rezeki but after 4 months i juz cant close my eyes and swallow those foods..it is just tasteless!! sumthing wrong with my tongue or my stomach juz cant accept it! so at the end of the day either u buy or starve until tomorrow morning especially if u r so 'jonah' and kiasu...well thats wat usually happen to me..not eating..even worse if post-call, one thing u only think of is to lie down on ur bed..sleep all night..forgetting about meal(gud way of losingweight?? haha..guess so)

As a HO we are expected to come early to work, currently i usually reach ward by 6.30AM…and it can stretch up to 8PM - midnight if you’re unlucky or getting into so much trouble like DOWNTIME(which is so common in my hospital!!), late CME or emergency case...helping ur frenz cleaning up things in the wards..and i usually make it a habit to pass over to those oncall. During my final years i've heard people talking about PM off after calll..haha..wat a laugh...as my previous HOD used to say, u r the front liner in the hospital..in our abscence on even half day would surely make the wards up side down.. crippled!

Everytime that i mumbled to my mum bout the lack of hols she will alwiz say these “Holidays for housemen are not rights, but privileges.” but then again, 8 days per posting = 8 days in 4 months including weekends???so not fair..we are not like robots..this is so boring ! and there goes my other frens..calling me and telling me dat i am bz..cant be reach...no more hanging around togather! it is a sad thing okay...i do envy my frens..able to chill togather..especially when i opened my FB seeing my name being tag..they went for a hang over..bachelor nite..karaoke..urgh!!!damn sucks life!No more late night movies..no hang out wif cousins karaoking, bowling or swimming..no more BBQ nite with family..and i really have to find time to meet my dear adam..missing him so much..juz talking thru video call..when i went back home i had to buy CDs to catch up with latest movie..so not me okay!huhu..and even worst, i was da last to know that my dear cousin already had her baby out..URGH!! In short, HO means no social life..

Some hospitals enforce the rule that a houseman is to work everyday including Saturday, Sunday and public holiday. Half day of work during the holidays except for those oncalls.(I'm working on the last Eid Fitri..only on leave on 7th raya) Some departments, realizing that housemen are also humans instead of mindless drones, softened the rule by saying that while housemen were to come on those said holidays we are allowed to work things out with other housemen so that a rotation can be done so that at least a houseman gets at least a weekend off, as long as there are other housemen to cover the work that needed to be done. And some other departments are headed by angels that say that if you’re not oncall on those holidays, you’re off from work!!

The only things i do agree is that although u're the lowest hierarki, HO = HAMBA ORANG, this is the only time u apply ur knowledge you have learned from med school. But of course, normally we tend to have retrograde amnesia upon graduation(this is da time when specialist and MO will raised their voice and say that u shud not 4get it coz u r still fresh graduate..huhu) so housemanship is an opportunity to regain those lost knowledge and it's not a total lost but just lost track in ur mind..hehe! Practical stuffs are more fun to do at first, but became a normalcy as time passed, and tedious when you get a long list of those to be done.

If you’re surrounded by great superiors and great staffs, the workload won’t bother you much. But not when u are surrounded by those who scolded a lot but no teaching, those who mumbled so much...fellow HO which counts at work they do and of course being bullied by so called SENIOR HO as they r the oldies in the department...it is like u r counting every minute to get the hell out of the wards! one thing that i learnt in my new department is that people are so good at covering their ass...and at the end the youngsters will take the fault...

So people out there, please do take note that being a doc is never a glamourous or spot lite job..Nak glamor, jadi artis paling tak pun pengacara pun glamour dah....

dah lama aku xmenulis di ruangan ini...rasanya sejak start keje nih mmg xde lagi..masa 24 jam terasa terlalu singkat..kadang2 aku bagai mengejar masa.betul orang ckp,,bekerja ni tak seindah mane.bnyk benda yang perlu kita pelajari bukan je pasal managing a patient as a whole tp nak kena terima je pe kerenah orang atasan, bertolak ansur dan bersabar dgn manusia yang selalunya sellfish,..lg worst kena terima dgn rela hati certain2 kesalahan yang kadang2 bukan kita yang buat...lagi tension kalo dapat rakan sekerja yang jenis berkira...tp ape pun tetap kena bekerja...i alwiz take it a postivie way...keje ni 1 ibadah...do it wif open arm!
p/s: diz entry will sure causing my pahala decreasing trend...i must stop groaning and moaning!!!

kisah dan lagu

Hendak ku lelapkan mata namun deruan angin malam di ruang tamu ini terlalu membuai2 perasaan ini…puas sudah aku cuba menanamnya agar diri tak dikuasai emosi…aku enggan menulis walau ku akui hanya di ruangan ini suara hati ku dapat dilontarkan..puas sudah aku berbicara dengan manusia…aku sudah letih..aku ingin berhenti..kerana bicara itu lebih memilukan..bicara yang tiada jawapan, tiada kesudahan..bicara yang cuba aku lenyapkan namun ternyata amat sukar..terlalu!

Ku kira waktu yang diberi cukup untuk pemantapan diri..persiapan diri..tindakan yang ku ambil dapat memberi ruang untuk aku bangun dari kemelut ini..tapi ternyata percaturan ku silap..kebesaran Illahi mengatasi segalanya..percaturan Illahi percaturan terAgung..subhaAllah..andai itu takdirNya akan ku hadapi sebaikNya…kerana janjiNya yang terbaik telah ditentukan buat hambaNya…oh hati, tabahlah…usah kau noda lembaran baru kehidupan ini..aku tak mahu mencongak apakah erti di sebalik segalanya..bukan kerana aku menolak , bukan jua kerana aku memendam rasa..kerana aku sedar penhujungnya telah diberi..biar sesukar mana menahan rasa…kerana janjiku; siapa pun aku,aku mahu memberi kebahagiaan…kerana aku pernah berlari, mencoba untuk ke pentas yang sebaiknya aku siapkan..namun ternyata itu bukan kehendakNya….

Menantikan dia kembali melamun hatiku sedih

Hati gelisah bermimpi bermadukan kasih…

Ku sampaikan ratapan jiwa dihembusan angin lalu

Harapan ingin berjumpa menyampaikan hasrat rindu

Tapi hanyalah bayangan tak kunjungnya kembali lagi

Gelap suram pemandangan binasalah diri

Remuk redam rasa hati tak tertahan menanggung rindu

Kasih tak mungkin kembali musnahlah harapanku…

mari membuat agar-agar pelangi

hehe...selepas konvo n bercuti2 aku xberkesempatan tulih blog nih...ade ide tp xpunya waktu..haha..waktu yang ade bnyk p tgk wayang, shopping and berkaraoke..haha...syiok! ok lahh..ni bahan-bahannya :

2 paket agar-agar serbuk

250 gram gula untuk 1 packet agar-agar

900ml air sejuk untuk 1 packet agar-agar

900ml santan

pewarna : hijau, merah,pink,purple,hijau,biru

cara-cara membuatnya :

1. 1 paket agar-agar dimasak dengan 900ml air + 250 gm gula. setelah masak biarkan terus di atas api kecil supaya sentiasa panas dan tak membeku. jangan masukkan sebarang pewarna. ini merupakan agar-agar tanpa warna

2. masak 1 paket agar-agar dengan 900ml santan + 250 gm gula. Biarkan di atas api kecil seprti agar-agar yang pertama

3. sediakan acuan yang ingin digunakan untuk meletak agar-agar

4. sendukkan 2-3 senduk(depends la brape besar senduk yg dipakai) agar-agar tanpa warna ke dlm mangkuk dan tuangkan ke dalam acuan anda tadi. Biarkan ia sejuk dan membeku (jangan tunggu sehingga ia keras)

5. setelah lapisan pertama beku, sendukkan 2-3 senduk agar-agar bersantan ke dalam mangkuk dan letakkan pewarna.Kacau supaya sebati dan tuangkan perlahan-lahan di atas lapisan pertama agar-agar tanpawarna tadi. Pastikan agar-agar dituang rata

6. ulangi proses ini dengan selang selikan agar-agar tak berwarna diikuti agar-agar bersantan + berwarna mengikut urutan warna yang kita suka.Hasilnya adalah agar-agar berlapis pelangi...

sEjaRah BaTu PaHAt

aku terpk nak wat entry ni bile afif tnye aku soalan yg aku xpenah terpk nk amik tau...nuai, ko org Johor kan?? ko tau x nape tempat ko lahir, Batu pahat tu dapat nama cm2?? haha...for a moment silence surrounded us...i believe all of them there that time were waiting for my brilliant answer...alamak, aku seriesly xtau afif...xpenah terpk pun nak tau...then i realize..wat a shame...ngaku je org BP tp satu ape pun xtau...

welll, aku pun p la carik maklumat and diz is wat i discover...BATU PAHAT gets its name bcoz BATU diPAHAT..lets go back to our basic form 1-3 history book...ingat lagi peristiwa siam serang Melaka??? Mase zaman kegemilangan Melaka, Sultan Mansur was the ruler dat time...so as a revenge diorg pun serang la balik...Bendahara Tun Perak yg lead..serang2..tentera siam pun lari ke Muar and then terus ke bawah lagi, iaitu Bee Pee..diorng smpi kat Pantai Minyak beku(apalah name pantai ni cmni??).Pantai Minyak Beku ni diorg lepak and diorg teruskan jalan smpi 1 kawasan tuh tempat tu berbatu2...diorg pun pahat2 batu untuk dapatkan air...

tp ade gak story yg ckp BP ni dpt name sbbb mase zaman portugis wat A Famosa dulu diorg import batu dari BP..haha....yg mane 1 btol i dont know but i pefer the earlier version...lgpun bersesuaian ngan symbol yang diorg wat mase sambutan 100 tahun batu pahat..

Points to ponder....

to those outside, cube pk sejenak do u know the story of ur city or hometown??? hehe

a gift...thank u so much!

SONY ERICCSON C905

haha..sempena graduation yang bakal tiba i have receive in advance reward from sumone i love very much...arigato..mase ditanya hadiah apa yang ku hajati...akumula menyenaraikan apa yang terlintas dimindaku..(seriously bnyk gak listnya) tp setelah aku pk panjang i would rather hav diz sbb nnt takut org2 len kate ape lak aku demanding sangat..haha..dalam idup aku xpernah2 pakai phone kaler pink..ni la 1st time..hehe..sangatlh suke..lepas p tempah tu i was also given a choice kalo nak p wat nombor baru..huhu...(^.^) sangatlah sy suke..tp xbole rushing..banyak benda nak kena settle dulu...lgpun bnyk urusan rasmi yang telah aku letakkan current phone number..so i think i will hav to wait until everything has settledown...dan semalam aku telah mengetest kepoweran kamera nih...okla, quite satisfying..sgt best la phone ni walaupun sbenarnye aku xske satu je bout diz hp...video call die back side...xbesh kan?? tp xkesah asalkan time wat video call dapat tgk muke adam yang kiut miut tuh..hehe...ok, la dah 11.30..nakkena p dok depan tv!!!!!!!